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The sloppy ‘joe’… November 18, 2006

Posted by Simba in : Wiggles , 5 comments

As I was saying all through the last post, I just have lost the patience & energy to pen my blog regularly. Though I sincerely admire all the readers and especially those who wish to send me good wishes thro’ comments & emails etc. Sorry to disappoint you… I have taken off the Job-Hunt page as I figured out that I am not a good book-keeper this year :(

But that said, I am doing all I can to end up where I want to. I hope I do. And when I do, trust me to put up a nice post. :) Other things are fine but I hate this Term in school, things just seem to be moving so slow & the courses I am on right now are not ’stimulating’. A small post for now… Updates later!

Where am I heading?! November 2, 2006

Posted by Simba in : Life Marvels, Frivolous Me , 12 comments

I know it has been a while since I wrote something significant. So, today, I thought I should stop by my blog and see what I can do with it. It is amazing how things take priority in life. Long ago, I would ‘live’ on this blog constantly thinking about ’stuff’ I can throw in here & increase the counter hits. But now, I guess I am almost on the verge of giving up writing! Huh?! Nah, but you will definitely see me getting more lazy around these parts :)

I have re-started doing my job search, except that it is coming with half the interest and quarter the effort compared to last year. No, I still need a job, now lets not have any doubt about that one! I was talking to a good friend of mine a couple of weeks back and he asked “what is your alternate arrangement if you don’t get a job?” Phew, someone asking me sucha a direct question right on my face is something I still am not used to! So, my only answer was - Well, I need to get a job & there is no other alternative! Of course, it is challenging and I am not being very focussed at this point. I just had an interview yesterday which went ok but there are time when things just don’t feel right.. I still haven’t heard from them but well, I guess I have a gut about it!

But when I start thinking about the job scenario & some of the challenges, I am spooked about the amount of work ahead of me with the time running out. Seriously though, once I look back and see the quantum of things I have achieved over the last couple of years to get to where I am, I am not worried about the coming months. I know, it will be ok and I might actually survive. But, there is this deep nagging feeling that keeps reminding me of the true reason why I came so far and why I have worked so hard - Well, of course a good job with a good pay would do me a world of good as I don’t even remember the last time I stepped into a huge store to exhaust my pay chek - but I did have a good job with a good pay! My MBA was a reason to get a hold on my life, achieve my dreams, work with some of the best minds, challenge myself everyday and stress out every hour… but more to do something that I really really want!

So, that obviously takes me to the next question - what do I want to do? There was a time, not so long back, when I would keep wondering about how people would get brilliant ideas to start companies. I failed to see any gaps in the existing scenario and didn’t think I had it in me either to venture that way or be innovative! I always wanted to do something but never knew ‘what’. And I would just be amazed at things people achieve but I guess it is all one big learning experience - Life - It teaches you some of the best lessons! At this point, I have thought about so many things that I can do here, or back home in India,or internationally in many countries - I am constantly wondering how things would be different with this product or that service. I really want to do many of these things and not for the fame (if there is any!) or for being ‘cool’, but for the challenge associated with them. :)

Yeah, I know it is a great thinking but well, who will repay my loan in that context. As a small entrepreneur I really cant expect mega earnings for at least couple of years i.e ‘at-LEAST’! So, may be like the rest of the herd I should be a little more serious about job hunt and get a decent job which can pay me decent enough for me to pay off a decent amount of debt! But at the same time, I wish I could be involved with a non-profit because that kind of work fascinates me but, the inner knock comes through - How will I repay the loan and Who will process my work visa? See these are the some of the questions which haunt me through harrowed hallways and upsets me so many hours in a day & so many days in a month! So, for time being I want to be pratical & pragmatic - Go ‘for-profit’ - Fashion Retail interests me a lot but I need some one to get me in! Consulting is another great profession to be in and though the travel would get to me, I could be a good consultant but hello, who is calling me for an interview? Finance major sounds cool too but where do I start..Should I be picky about the industry or function? Wow - I think more education just makes life more complicated ;)

I think I am done with nagging for today and for a week from now, so take a breather! Get some hot chai - You are not alone. Each of us deal with some kind of stress, either taken upon voluntarily or bestowed upon!