Yada yada yada… July 26, 2006
Posted by Simba in : Work & Beyond, Frivolous Me , 8 comments…whatever. Okai, I have about 4 days to wind up my act and come up with my first ‘final’ presentation! I have no idea what I am going to do! The reports that I am supposed to be using as the base for all my analysis seems to be seriously flawed and I get to know about it now. Hmmmph! The surveys that I had sent out to validate my findings.. well, let alone validate… I need to use them as a first finding report. And the percentage of survey takers seems to be so bad that the whole thing might look skewed. I havent done almost 50% of the things that I should have completed by now. I havent spoken to half the people I want to, in order to get their opinion on my recommendations. And my recommendation sucks! I have almost no material to talk about nor any numbers to fall upon. For the life of me, I dont know where to go from here or what do about everything. And my supposedly creative brain has fallen prey to the corporate environment around me and refuses to budge. Maybe its that thick ‘old-age-memory-lapse’ layer which is the culprit, after all, for blocking up my innate creative juices.
When I look back on all the stuff I have done over the summer, all I can see is numbers and numbers. Now, my mind draws up sheets of excel even in my sleep and I am squinting at the screen to ensure that I dont ask the ‘Window/Door’ vendor about a sink! So, why am I sitting here and blogging when I have so many things to do… Hmmm, thats an amazing question that I am asking myself at this point! Well, maybe I dont want to lose you as my blog reader, maybe I want my counter to keep counting up & beyond, maybe I am tired of messing up so many things that I can only think of keeping this blog intact, or maybe.. I have finally lost it! 
We all have bad days and bad times. So do I. But after what I have been through with regards to my health, I cannot say.. how trivial all these seems at this point! So, I might not be able to impress the people out here, or worse, disappoint them and not get that final offer. The only thing that would bother me is if I knew i could have done a better job than I ended up doing.. well, is that the case..maybe, to some extent but surely nothing to spend sleepless nights about! All these…surely doesnt define the way I look at things. If it means so much to me, I will come back to work for them again next year even if it means, staring a fresh post-mba-job-hunt web page 
But that’s ok. I can still dream of better days and many a better times! It is wonderful to wake up in the morning and see the bright sun make its way through the blinds… its a beautiful day, everyday is a wonderful beginning… and I hope to keep it that way!
Habitat for Humanity July 22, 2006
Posted by Simba in : General, Volunteer , 4 comments
Its been a while since I did some community work and I almost had this urge to do something over the last few days. Maybe because I was over thinking about myself, my health, my life etc. It’s at these times, I kind of get into a sympathetic phase and feel sad about the days I go through. I guess we all face such days and the only way to get out of that phase is to go out and work for others. And I did exactly that for Habitat.
As a part of Intern Community work of Lowe’s, we helped out the Habitat builders in building a home. It was fun but owing to bad health, I couldnt be of too much help. But hey, I tried my hands on drilling & the electric saw.. I wish I could do this on a more regular basis as it is proper labor work with sweat et al. We started out pretty well but as the sun moved right on top of our heads, it started getting a little tiring. And the actual builders on their front were very helpful in teaching the tricks, rather the art of building a home! I have done a host of other things as a part of my voluntary service but never ‘this’ kind. It is pretty interesting how they operate. On lay man terms, they buy a lot of land and build homes for the homeless. But how do they pick on whom to donate the homes to.. Am not really clear about that but anyone who wants a home should have assisted them for ‘x’ hours building other people’ homes! Interesting, huh!?
I really love the attitude of ‘Do-it-yourself’ out here. Most of the work around the house is generally done by the owners themselves.. yeah, manual labor is crazy but I think, there is also a sense of satisfaction when you probably build your own table even if it doesnt compare with a designware! So, should I think about doing up my home.. once I get to that point.. Ahem, an interesting thought! Lets see how that goes!
I am still working on this website, and just not this blog. It will take a while. Stay with me. Will keep you all posted!
Life Update July 13, 2006
Posted by Simba in : Life Marvels, Work & Beyond, Frivolous Me , 9 commentsWhen posts on a blog become less frequent, then it’s not a blog update, rather it’s a life update. The last month has almost been one helluva roller coaster ride. I wish I never ever go through such a upheaval again. Never ever. People closer to me have gone far away and those further away have come closer. Its weird when trouble comes, it really pours!
We always hear about people dying and people coming down with incurable diseases. What if you come to know that sadly, now, its your turn to be real sick! I have been worried, scared and almost dead thinking about what I might have contacted. It has been a journey with many anxious nights and worrisome days. I am still far away from knowing what is wrong but slowly & painfully I will get there. I have been so mad at God for a long time, most probably the most bitter amongst all his men. Never had I made my peace with Him. But with so many things going out of sync, there is only Him to turn to! It’s so surprising that we so easily forget to thank Him for the blessings but once we are a wreck, we miss him so dearly.
And of course, PaGaLGirL will be closed soon. Maybe it’s the way it is meant to be! My first venture fails horribly but it has been a learning experience. Building a community is definitely not my forte and maybe venturing into unknown at a wrong time was not sucha great idea. Too many bad mouthings & words have been flung into thin air which has reduced wonderful relationships and friendships to almost nothing. It is too sad things had to turn so bitter. Have been overwhelmed by the support I got from the entire girl community! Its truly awesome! But now, I have almost run out of things I would have wanted to say!
Work front has been ok. Too much work and too less time. There goes weekends & free evenings. I have to wind up a lot of stuff, the biggest problem being I need to figure out everything. The project I am handling is probably the most undefined of the lot. Either they presumed that I am too smart to figure it out or they didnt have the faintest idea why they hired me! Phew! I will let you know how that will go..rather, how it will all end! Final offer tho bhool jao! 
Have a couple of interesting things coming up and will definitely post about them. I have made some very good friends in my internship circle and we all do have a lot of fun once we get out of work. Tired. Will pen a better post later. So exhausted!!