Biggest Failure! December 10, 2004
Posted by Simba in : Uncategorized , 8 commentsThere have been a lot of times when I have failed miserably and thought it was just the end of the world. But I guess GMAT this time beats all of my past failures. And I hold myself responsible for this stupid feat. Have been going thro a lot of emotions and sic feelings. I feel like kicking myself a 1000 times for being a nervous wreck on the D-Day!!
One thing, theres no doubt I was well prepared for this GMAT exam. I really was but then again, whats the point when you totally blank out and have a panic attack right before you start the exam. That is precisely what happenned to be. See, as a person, I have historically messed up all these standardized ‘tests’ because I suffer from a BIG phobia. I just under perform during these std tests. Last Jan when I took up the GMAT, I knew deep within that I would not get a hi-fi score but when I went in this time, I atleast felt a wee bit more confident. Damn, I had slogged myself for 2 odd months.
I started off with the AWA section. First was an argument and it was ok. Then, came a lil bit tough Analysis essay. Writing this took quite a effort because I had to get all those darn creative juices out onto that text editor. How I hated writing that piece. I wont be surprised if I get a 4 upon 6 this time. Who cares! Then, started the Quant section & my God, I was not prepared to any of the questions that kept bombarding the screen. It was outrightly insane!! They were so tough and knowing my mental block for these questions, I was paralysed with fear. I started shivering & was almost having a heart attack. What happenned? Were the questions really tough that I could not manage or was it just a pyscho thing that got into me.. I can never really say!!
Next came the verbal session. I knew that I was a goner in Math and wanted to max up in my Verbal. All along, I thought I was doing well but I was damn surprised to see a low score on Verbal. Math score too was bad but seeing the way I guessed, it could have been worse. And in totality, GMAT killed me right, left and centre.
Hmmm. Now, this serious debacle set back a lot of action plans and options. It almost limits me to nothing now. What do u expect, 2nd GMAT score lesser than the first, Sheesh.. the adcom guys will take me to be a ‘Moose’. What is my next move? How am I even gonna get around to working my way out? Really not sure. Also, after close to 2 days, I am even able to recount my nightmarish experience. I just feel awful. More than that, vengeful!